Yes, I'm freaking emo this week. The only way i can cheer up myself is laugh loudly, scream, chat or shout. I got no energies to scold, to get angry or whatever. I just want myself to be happy and always having a positive thinking mind. 'Nevermind, i can get through this.' , 'Nevermind, maybe he's just joking.' , 'Nevermind, i don't mean alot to him.' , ‘Nevermind, i got no rights to ask him everything.' How many times i have to repeat these few sentences to myself so that i can feel better? Everything stuck at my bottle-neck, academics? future? Frankly speaking, i treat everyone as in Family, friends, or relationships in the first place. I don't treat you guys as my foe, or even my toe. Sometimes when i let go my tears, that means i want myself to be more comfortable. I dont hide in the pillow and cry like mad EVERY night like what i did when i was really a little girl. Im 17 now, i guess i have to be more understanding. I wish i can.
Nowadays i saw some of them posted a quotes. It's meaningful. 'If a girl care about you, that means she loves you. She don't know what she stays for, but she knows there is something she couldn't let go.' (why so true lol). I got no idea what i want but i don't think the situation right now won't be like 'dreams come true'. Wake up! stupid.
For some bastards who always say me putting myself in an incorrect mood, let me ask you a question. Can you control your tears if something meant to you alot leaves you or something you love disappear? Human beings have their own emotions, their own temper, and even their own limits. Can you just shut your mouth up before making me worse or I tell everyone your names? Please.
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