06102012

我爸他喝啤酒 

忽然搞emo本來想跟他拿來喝一點

想想還是算了 喝燕窩對皮膚比較好

發正自從預考開始皮膚就很差很差 

簡直就是受不了

Nowadays i'm obsessed with this song 

      " We are never ever getting back together "

Taylors Swift looks so hawt inside! Lyrics are so meaningful. 

The music video seems like is worth to have an animal party after breaking up. HAHA.

awwwwwwww so wild

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還有一個月，SPM... @@

聽起來還有點怕

30days X 24 hours X 60 minutes X 60 seconds 

剪掉 30days X at least 6 hours sleep time X 60 minutes X 60 seconds..

時間不多了啊啊啊啊！！！

哈哈哈哈還有20天 要生日了wor

我要17了咧！XD

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別相信所謂的唯一

所謂的永遠

所謂的爛臭承諾

什麽要你當我老婆

當我老公

要嫁給他

要娶你

一切都是屁

也許大家說

陷入愛情陷阱里的人

都不聽別人勸告

尤其是熱戀期

我知道你在讀這篇

不是說要拆散你們

我經歷過 我知道

你，我，我們兩個認識這麼久

你也知道我談過戀愛 對嗎

我只是把經驗告訴你

別像我那麼傻 那麼天真

相信什麽承諾 什麽永遠

別像我那麼笨 那麼癡情

寧願哭著說自己很幸福 也不要笑著說

寧願辛苦自己一而再再而三地妥協

吃醋是抵擋不了的

我明白

你也該有你的自由

跟誰聊天 跟誰說話是你的自由

我明白

他沒權利逼著你關掉面子書

你這樣一直哭有用嗎 

我都不想介入你們兩個

你這樣打給我哭 

你不允許我在你面前貶低他

那我只能勸你 對嗎

17歲了分析能力不是比較強了嗎

我寧願把我當作例子也不要你一直這麼淪陷下去

為他犧牲了這麼多

為他流了多少的淚

先專心讀好書 考好SPM 不是更好嗎

才一個月你就說要爲了他要怎樣 要做什麽

阿Ju 醒啦！

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明天要跟媽咪去KLCC買... 水果= =

很好笑對嗎 你們肯定會問我爲什麽kajang不買跑去KL買

媽咪說那邊比較新鮮 我給你炸到

我個人覺得

只有跟媽咪出去 我們之間的感情才會變好一點

所以... 嗯...............

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木瓜 我真的忍不住不笑你

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

我也不知道我要寫什麽

我開著博客就發呆了很久很久

哦對 木瓜問我爲什麽我用華語和英文寫博客都那麼有feel

其實.. 這是天生的!! XD 

哈哈哈 其實我也不懂

因為我寫的都是我想說的

可能你有感覺到吧 哈哈

剛剛哥哥說媽媽沒聽完別人說完一件事

就馬上下了定論

當時我也是很激動地贊成我哥哥說的話

媽媽問我爲什麽那麼激動

我想說 

媽 原來你不知道你有對我這麼做過

你記得嗎 

當我說我覺得自己很失敗 成績不理想的時候

你有問過我分數嗎 你有鼓勵過我嗎

沒有，你是直接說

‘是不是沒讀書？’

‘是不是整天對著小銀幕？’

‘再這樣我把你的電話沒收上來，到你SPM之後才還給你’

你沒發覺我通常都沒這麼說嗎

我把自己的要求放高一點 不行嗎

從50多進不到70多 你不夠滿意嗎！！

其實是個好消息 我也不打算說了

反正我最失敗的 

你說的

我沒讀書 

我一直看小銀幕

我一直玩電話

這件事是發生在我去學琴的途中

我踏進了教室反而是我覺得內疚

.....

今天出門

你叫我讀書 要溫習功課

媽 你不是不知道

我17歲了 我知道SPM剩下正正一個月

我會怕的 我會壓力的

你踏出門說的那句話，我很記得

你說

‘你又不是不知道你的trial的成績囖’

你也應該沒忘記我說的那句話吧

‘我已經很盡力去考了，我在學校做什麽你也不知道’

媽 我去學校

我是真的有帶書去看

我有一直做高數

我去學校也不是 不去學校也不是

你到底想要我怎樣……

你都跟人家說你沒逼孩子讀書

對 你沒逼，是你說盡力就好的

這句話是你說的

但拿成績的時候你說過什麽你都忘了

每次拿到成績我都會很怕

我很怕你生氣

我很怕你說我沒盡力

你都說我其實是可以讀書的，

媽...我真的很盡力了

每次拿成績單（不包括家長回校日）

我都一直把成績單藏在書包裡

等老師要收回的前一天

我才拿出來

一個17歲的中學生

不是應該要有適當的自由嗎

爲什麽我總是覺得我被看成7歲的小孩

很不聽話 很不懂事 很調皮 不會收拾房間的7歲小孩

可能你以一個家長還是大人的角度來想

你覺得你都對

孩子都錯

也許我這樣說 你覺得我更錯

你也可能會說 你都是爲了我好

我現在也是你的孩子

我明白其他孩子聽到這句話的感受

他們（包括我）都會這樣....

’爲什麽你們就是不能好好聽我說‘

’爲什麽不聽我先解釋‘

’爲什麽不聽我的看法怎樣‘

一句‘爲了我好’，就讓我們沉默好久好久....

我只想找個時間好好跟你溝通

我們多久沒這樣了

以前不是好好的嗎

我是多久沒哭著寫博客的

眼睛濕了又干 干了又濕

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每個人都不能認為

別人忍受你的脾氣是理所當然的

生氣就生氣 走出去透透氣就會好了。

別動不動就叫別人去死

萬一那個人真的死了

你負責？

以上言論沒針對任何人

Good afternoon to our respected patrons, ladies and gentlemen. Lol i'm going crazyyy. I got my English paper today. Well, i disappoints myself.. I just wanted an A for my trial because i'm keen to apply any courses without sitting for extra english tuition classes. Just a B, troubles me to explain to my parents or whoever.
Hmm so I did well in paper two but seriously i was like WHAT THE FAK when i saw my paper one. should read and investigate the title carefully.. there are differences between a JOURNEY and a TRIP, stupid.. i'm so stupid! Yeah i think i disappoints my teacher too? She said she can push me up to score an A. Sorry..i'm sorry. *sighs. Im still thinking how to explain this stupid careless mistake to my mum*
Or maybe she will nag me for.. a while? :/ .. so actually i'm a teenager, i have tonnes of opinions which differ from my parents or i mean.. older one? I tried my best to agree and comprehend them. Like what chinese said, rock bangs rock. I don't like to offend anyone, i'm tired of arguments. Getting my cheeks or head burning with anger is not comfortable. So can you listen to me while i explain to you.. later?
maybe you guys think that i'm weird cos i was like very emo just because of a subject. This is the only subject which i'm confident to score an A.. i always fail my account, my addmaths. Nowadays i tried alot of practises but seems like.. i'm an addmaths noobie.
I desire to score at least five or six subjects. I want a vivid future. Success always come from sufficient practise.. good luck.. to me. And everyone.

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在我最後一次 閉上眼睛之前 .... ;') @@"

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30／9／2012

如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命~~~~

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26／09／2012

哈哈，還有一個月就生日了呢。
算了吧
既然媽媽說叫我跟朋友出去慶祝，
那應該是..有她自己的原因。
呵呵，我什麽也不敢去想
生日會而已 沒慶祝就沒慶祝
考試還是比較重要吧..

我害怕畢業之後會一個人
一個人吃東西
一個人逛街
一個人到處走
一個人..
全都是一個人。

大家都說我很三八 我很瘋癲
認識朋友會很快
其實瘋癲的人擔心的也是這些。

我想
當我去到了一個沒人認識我的地方
一個全新的環境
是時候發揮我在卡內基訓練班學到的東西了
加強人際關系
現在人際關系也沒很好啊
可能是我不知足？

嗯，我和誰都聊得來，
可是當我恨一個人我就會把他恨之入骨
哈哈天蠍座的本性？反正我也不太相信

我明天還是不去學校吧
整天都不太舒服會有想哭的感覺
不知道不知道
我很討厭現在。

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EXIT

I'm serious and i mean it.

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Ponteng :O

其實我也不知道我爲什麽會更新blog

其實我想說的就是 我昨晚去了機場

然後今早睡遲了 所以逃課哈哈哈 

話說昨天我去機場 讓我想了好多好多

本來是要去arrival hall的，怎知我走著走著走到了depature hall

這樣顯得我好想路癡 明明就在不同地方！

嗯，看著其他人抱在一團 抱在一起痛苦

雖然那些人跟我沒關係 但其實那種場面真的很心酸 

好討厭這樣 

以前家裡的傭人要回國的時候 我都會去送機

有幾個服務了兩年就回家，不能說我對她們都沒有感情

其實是有的。

看她們離開的背影 搭escalator這樣走下去 慢慢地 看不見她們的背影

很想哭.. 

她們都會答應說要回來，但到了那一天 人影都沒見。

感情也一樣

說走就走，走了 回來了，又走了

而且是跟著新的走的

曾經一切的承諾都是屁，我還需要在意什麽

都把以前的一切當成是我的錯

都把以前的回憶當成是賤的

我到現在還是無法原諒。

想當初我是多麼地笨原諒了你

包容一切 妥協....

到頭來，我發現一切都是騙人的 是我自己拿來衰

如果世界都是好男人那該多好

女人們都說好男人很少，是啊 真的很少

我可憐有些女生一遇就是遇到 賤的，胃的，衰的...

嗯...或許她們都懂我是什麽意思。

從前的我爲了你崩潰

爲了你流了多少的眼淚

爲了你跟別人吵了多少次架

爲了你做了多笨的事情

是，我笨 我一廂情願。

我笑我自己笨 

我笑我自己傻

我笨就笨在等你等那麼久

我傻就傻在一直在默默守候

我是你第一個甩掉的女人吧，恭喜我。哈哈哈哈哈哈

真的，跌倒了就會成長

就像學腳踏車一樣

以前我也是一直跌到 跌到腳都破了才學會怎麼騎的

一樣的道理，我的腳破了，傷口也癒合了

我站起來了！=)

我崩潰的那天你應該都不知道吧

大家都怕我會做什麽傻事

大家，我現在不是好好的嗎？Banana is back!! =D

從前的我什麽事情都往心裡藏，

謝謝你改變了我。

現在的我學會狠心。

學會當個鐵石心腸的人

我也不想的，

我不想再被欺負

我不想當個心軟的人。

真的很感謝姐妹一路來的關心，

一直問我在做什麽

有沒有吃東西

也謝謝你們一直支撐著我 

沒讓我這個香蕉倒下。

我現在過得很好..很好。

我所做的一切都是爲了我自己

我不想我的腦海裡又出現一大堆不該出現的

我現在很開心

我已經痊愈了。

先專心考SPM吧，未來和更好的還在等著我呢 <3

Sunday!

好，我要先聲明一下。這，是我的部落格。

亂亂透露我的部落格給人家知道就是不對。

這，是我發洩我的情緒的地方，記載著我和拖鞋的回憶的地方。

我不喜歡討厭的人一直這樣看著我的部落格，讀著我的部落格。

換了blog link之後，要是還敢透露給低級動物知道，別怪我把blog放private，

你幾歲？這一點尊重都不懂！干。

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剛剛去吹了這個髮型，是自己吹的，不知道適不適合自己哈哈哈。

我把昨天的sisters day說詳細點吧。

昨天12點多我，Vivian和Johnelle就到了火車站。

我不知道我應該怪馬來西亞的火車站無能還是什麽 只有一條軌道可以走

重點是，要往上走 和 往下走都用同一個軌道。

那個工作人員就叫我們上車，去到UKM，覺得不對勁，又下車。

再上車，去到Bangi.. 越去越遠！那時候已經一點多了。

還好那時候有車往反方向走，又回到了kajang，已經是2點半了。

當時我們的心情簡直就是糟糕到不行，原本那個時候已經是在MV了！

搞到3點這樣才到。然後馬上沖到Ninja Joe去吃東西。

三隻惡鬼，好像餓了很多天這樣。

就這樣走著走著，買了東西，也吃了很多東西。

還是最喜歡糖百府。

我也不知道心情爲什麽不好，點了芒果冰就開始和Vivian一起吃。

他們說吃甜品心情會好，嗯.. 是真的有點好。

回家的時候，是晚上8點多，這是我第一次那麼遲回家。那麼遲搭火車。

原本是打算去Library喝酒，但改去吃甜品了，還算心滿意足哈哈。

Tien也信息來問我們回到家了沒 

叫我們最好不要去喝酒 早點回家

這應該算是她第一次對我發這種信息吧？哈哈哈好感動 謝謝你Tien.

（我不叫你外號，因為我會想起那個人..）

吃了甜品之後我還以為我今晚可以睡得很好，

可以很安寧很平靜地睡下去。怎知道我上了火車..

不禁想起以前的事情，想起拖鞋、朋友之間的問題。

就這樣跟Vivian談起了心事。

這也是我第一次在火車上跟姐妹談心事，超有feel的 <3

就好像木瓜所說的，拖鞋之間的距離越來越遠，也就是說...

距離感越來越重。

昨天在The Gardens和兩個傻婆談起生日會的事情。

我想起這個真的很不開心，

我真的很怕沒人會來

我真的很怕別人因為考試在埋頭苦讀

我真的很怕我們沒辦法像以前這樣

生日當天是公共假期，真的有人會來嗎……

我....又在怕了。

有個傻婆說沒人記得他的生日。

她幫人家慶祝，到頭來沒人幫她慶祝。

傻婆，我們不一樣，我們不會這麼沒心。:-)

昨天我忽然也pop出了一句話，‘我們用高級的眼神和眼睛刮一個低級的動物。‘

我也不知道爲什麽會說到這個，想到我說這一句話真的是侮辱了我的眼睛TT XD

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我應該聽長輩的話，他們真的是爲了我好。

現在的下場，真的是我自己搞來的。我活該。

當初放手，放棄不就好了嗎，爲什麽當初我這個笨腦袋還不會清醒，不會分析？

嗯 沒關係，人總是要跌倒了才知道什麽叫教訓。

跌得多重，傷口就有多深。

要有教訓，傷口才不會那麼痛。要不然跟自己在傷口撒鹽的感覺沒分別。

我在微博上看到這句話：

“我還沒18，我青春多的是，你浪費的，只是我的童年”

哈哈哈這句話好贊！我真的好喜歡！XD

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預考我也盡力去考了，除了朋友的問題我什麽都沒去想。

我努力做好一個學生的本分，該考的試就去考。

老師說 現在不要急著戀愛，以後去到College就會有更好更成熟的男生了。

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Releasing stress @ Midvalley

I'm back! since i just went for bathe so while waiting my hair to dry i decided to update my blog first. So me, Johnelle and Vivian went to Midvalley just now. Two of us are unhappy then we had our non-stop eating day lol. i know it's fattening lolololol guilty. Let the photos to explain everything. i'm so tired to type it clearly cos i'm freaking tired lol. it's my first time getting back home in late night. since mummy and daddy is coming back tomorrow, so i think today will be the last day for me to surf the net in the late night hahaha. alright, start now. As my slippers know i like to snap photos hahaha...

Came home around 10pm. ahhhhhh tired. Update again tomorrow. release mood! :x 

Temporary freeeeeeee!

預考終於考完了！壓力了整一個月我終於……暫時自由了 -.- 

前晚和昨晚都在發燒，肚子痛，頭痛，發冷。我也不知道發生什麽事

不能給Mummy知道，不然她會說我沒照顧好自己 哈哈哈 

嗯……現在是11點。他們說晚上打部落格會很emo？我不知道。

昨晚知道他們有題目，已經放上面子書了。

可能拍得有點遠吧，我啥都看不見。所以我把補習的功課都挖出來做了一遍。

一直imbang不到很慌張，頭又痛 又發燒。我不知道該怎麼辦。

昨晚我自己一個在樓上睡，沒人教我。

我整個就是慌張到馬上撲在床上哭，很怕很怕。

畢竟我的account很少及格，我只想盡力去做。

今天去到學校我也不知道該做什麽，從車上一直在心裡OS著 ‘Imbang不到怎麼辦’

嗯，是最後一科，爲什麽我那麼笨，沒那種天分去讀這個科目？

感謝阿煒解釋給我聽 教我怎麼做。

考試前我明明還會的，一看到考卷我啥都忘了。

我沒作弊，我沒抄答案，我沒背答案，我沒死記。

聽說很多班都直接抄答案？我不清楚。也不敢說，因為沒證據。

無論如何，預考也考完了，大考……我會崩潰？

放學后也和Vivian去吃甜品。我也不怕死 明明就生病還敢吃。

之後想到有補習也沒什麼，我補習是爲了大考的。

換作是以前的我，我早就曠課了。以前我是不愛讀書的。

其實我們都17歲了吧，爲什麽有些就是頭腦跟思想不會跟著長大呢？

對，你的性格不必為誰而改，你是你自己，You're limited edition.

可是你有想過你這樣對人家，是錯的嗎？換成是你們你們還受得了嗎。

我真的不知道該怎麼說，

我真心覺得你處理事情/解決事情的態度很有問題，非常有問題。

朋友多，不是大完的。知道嗎？

每個人有自己的脾氣，這個我懂。因為我脾氣也不會很好。我承認。

我朋友也是有自己的想法，你們不贊同也沒辦法。

拜託，處理事情方面我真的覺得你們需要反省一下。

不要不分青紅皂白就認定結果，這算什麽。

我也會自我反省的。

Troubles?

說多錯多，不如不說... when i get silent so that means i'm not going to create your so called 'troubles'. Okay, as your wish, i keep my mouth ZIPPED. 

Screw chinese. wth.

So writing my previous post for chinese on the day before sitting for chinese exam is USELESS. Yeah my fault. Should type it or speak a proper sentence without adding any english word. ahhhhhhhhh
Paper two screwed me. I thought the exam start with paper one first so i didnt prepare anything for paper two. Wth seriously, those idioms are... okaay i gave up that part. And the second last part. For the long passage one i got no idea what is the meaning about the word 讀山 until i read the questions zzz. Tonnes of words looks so familiar but still i dont know how to read and what is he talking about.
Okay fine. Then i thought i can write better in paper one. The essay paper. WHAT THE HELL AGAIN. I got no idea how to write it so i started to crap whatever i want. I hope teacher understands me thanksthanksthanksTHANKSSSSS. Yeah.. everything came to the two words 'i thought'.. i thought. :-/
My last paper is on Friday. The stupid accounttttttttt, tried to love it but i phailed. So i fail this paper, it's very common because i hardly pass it. Hahhahaha okay ciao

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可能是自己的問題吧。

這次是我第二次更新了，突然覺得很moody..我也不知道為什麽會這樣。

明天考華語，那我就用華語寫完這一篇吧，反正我也很久沒用這種奇怪的心情寫了。

我不曉得我身邊的朋友有沒有跟我一樣 覺得身邊的朋友都變奇怪了。我誰都不敢去打擾，只能時不時跟左鳥發一下牢騷。可能因為這樣  我跟她的感情都有比以前好一些吧。

我也不曉得我們說的以後有沒有機會實現，希望是有吧，我個人也不喜歡因為現在這種狀況判斷以後大家一起相處的日子。嗯，可能真的是我想太多了，可能大家都在忙考試沒辦法像以前一樣常常聚在一起鬧 一起瘋。沒關系我們大家都能熬過去的，對嗎？

木瓜今天問了我今年會不會開生日派對。是有想過，我告訴她說，今年有文憑考試，我的生日距離考試只有那麽幾天，有誰會來...有誰的父母是讓他們來的..？大家都重視考試，那個星期肯定都在埋頭苦讀吧。

她是第一個告訴我 很希望能慶祝我的生日的人，她真的是第一個。我長這麽大，從來沒人對我這麽說過。她還說拖鞋也很重要。謝謝你木瓜♡♡♡有你們這班朋友是真的很幸福，不像其他的...追星居然比考試還重要 連問一問能不能出席生日會都說沒時間。 你這麽一說我還有一點動力去問媽咪，還有一線希望，盼望著你們都能出席生日會的那一天。

希望派對開得成吧。華語試卷加油。：‘）

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Home alone...

I got no idea why this photo doesn't show my panda eyes -.- not my fault. 

I got big difference between wearing a spec and without a spec. so u get what i mean ZZZ

Anyway i shall start blogging now. So my parents departed and went to overseas yesterday. and that means i'm going to be at home alone. hahah. Before departing, mummy left some money on the table and asked me to took extra care cos i'm still having the trial exam for the last week. Ohyah, my mummy left some sakae sushi coupons for me. Attention to slippers, anyone wants to follow? probably on the saturday after the account paper day (Friday). Johnelle, Papaya, Vivian or whoever saw this please give me a reply thanks.

So yesterday was Malaysia day huh? For me, it's Sisters' day! seriously i've totally forgotten about that holiday since there's a replacement holiday on Monday.. aiya whatever lah! The day before sisters' day, i posted a homemade bun on Instagram, so Johnelle, that stupid brinjal told me that she wants to come over last night. then she called Vivian to come along, to make macaroons. I suggested to make frozen fruits coated with chocolate too, so that we have some desserts to eat if we failed to make macaroons. Yeah so you know right.. macaroons is hard to make it so ends up we failed. :( Photo of the day.

We made the kiwi and grapes. The appearance doesn't look good but it's seriously tasty. I never knew there's a combination of chocolate and grapes lol. so we just simply try it. My dear papaya, come again after trial i'm super free after that. :)

And then we decided to go to night market since we got nothing to do and it's nearby my house. we walked there and hunt for some food. This world is just too small for us, met some of the friends there haha. so we bought passion fruit green tea shake and chocolate pearl milk tea as our drink for the walk. Johnelle and I bought phone covers too. Cos i'm seriously bored with my devil cover. geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Looks dirty but excuse me, this is pattern lah ok and i love it hahaha *giggles*. Before walking back home, we bought three sets of fried chicken chop as our dinner and one set for my maid. Chit-chat for the whole day and my mouth are seriously getting tired hahaha. Vivian and Johnelle got flu. Johnelle was the one who spreaded the virus to Vivian last night hahahahahahahhahahahahahaha LOL. 

My toe-nails are getting longer. and i kept on kicking on something and made my pedicure art chipped. fml. since the chipped area is not very obvious -.- but when i look near it still looks FUGLYYYYY. </3 :(((((

and yeah. i got no idea what's happening to those friends or whatever beside me. We have the last week to go, all the best peoples and slippers. :)

14september2012

Hmm, yeah so it's evening now and I found out that updating blog with my phone is much more convenient. Having serious girl pain right now so I'm going to update this dusty blog before I go to bathe.

So I had my addmaths today. And it's  seriously hard, sighs. Made me staggered while I'm walking and felt dizzy while guessing which formulas can I use in those stupid question. Saying the word 'shit addmaths' from the classroom until I reached the entrance of the school.

Whatever it is, it's over now and I'm going to fail that paper for like...90%? Pft. Well, I'm having Chinese and Accounting paper for next week. Ohyeah, and the useless shit sivik.

Yes I'm not in a mood nowadays. One problem combine with another problem. All the problems crumbled up and made me thinked alot. Hmm yea negative thinkings. Maybe everyone is having their exams like what I did. Stuffs like mine are same with them. One more week to go and I'm free. Parents going overseas and anyone wants to hang over or hang out? Hahahh.

Seems like my birthday is around the corner. I mean one month plus later. So that means SPM is around the corner too. Just a few days after my birthday, I think no one is free but anyway I think exam is more important..? okayokay I shall stop nagging now. Bye!;-)

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Trials.

One and a half week more to go! Work hard work hard!;-)

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Haha?

Well form 5 students are on their half way to complete the trial exams. Science stream students are having Physics paper today. Good luck yo!

Hmm.. i got nothing to say but seriously i feel weird. friends? hahaha.. nevermind. just stick to her k. forget about what i care for you, forget about what i did for you, forget about what i did when you're sad. forget about it.. hahahaha :')) go ahead.. go ahead.

30 Hours famine camp @ KWC

Yo babe. Finally im back to update my blog. So i went to the camp (30 Hours famine) @ Kenanga Wholesale City on 28th to 29th July 2012. Well, i have to speak honestly. I don't really enjoy this camp for this year. I rather bring along my ex-group mates. Sorry for these words, i don't enjoy it, seriously. Okay, and i'm freakin regret that i never join papaya's group to make new friends too. Hey slippers, lets form a group next year, without any haters? ON? :D

Hmm one of my friend invited me to join YABP, it's kind of an leadership association so that we can go for courses or programmes and we can create a Diy event. :) Interested? Alright, i shall start to share some photos now.

Mine, Johnelle's, Mandy's.

The night of the first day, there was a session about sharing short clips. I can't understand anything about the first clip and the second clip. But i cried like a tap water for the last short clip. It's all about a little girl taking care of her mum who having sick, and she collected recycle items so that she can save around two thousands to let her mum go for treatment. She collected for a long time, but she can only save 200, and she wanted an uncle to sell herself. 

At the moment, i recalled the days when i was rebellious. I don't even counted as a little girl, i'm so useless. i made troubles for my parents, i scolded them, i slam the door when i was angry. I called back my mum, and i asked her, 'Mum, am i a naughthy girl?' I repeated three times. I can't stop crying. (Almost everyone cried included me). Then my mum replied something which made me touched. She texted me too. Hmm.. as a child of your parents, please love them. U can make them angry, not always. They're getting older and older, face are getting pale, hair are getting silver. Appreciate now or never. 

Second point, the little girl collected the recycle items and she had a target which is save money for her mum to go for treatment. what about us? I believe most of us sell our newspaper just for some money. Have you every think to give away the newspapers to those charity associations? Help out the victims, the poor families, give away anything you don't need. don't throw away.

I won't be attending the countdown session tomorrow at Stadium Melawati, Shah Alam. Hope you guys enjoy screaming and shouting for Leehom! :) 

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And there is a 50% bad 50% good news, I'M CHOSEN TO TAKE PART IN NATIONAL SERVICE! Well, i will treat the camp like DisneyLand. I believe i can make others jealous. :P Promise to visit me if my campsite is near :D 

Nowadays there are some friends giving me a scrapbook to note down the memories we had, so i will be writing an additional one for you guys. 

*next post : Slippers never say bye. 

Blue week.

Yes, I'm freaking emo this week. The only way i can cheer up myself is laugh loudly, scream, chat or shout. I got no energies to scold, to get angry or whatever. I just want myself to be happy and always having a positive thinking mind. 'Nevermind, i can get through this.' , 'Nevermind, maybe he's just joking.' , 'Nevermind, i don't mean alot to him.' , ‘Nevermind, i got no rights to ask him everything.' How many times i have to repeat these few sentences to myself so that i can feel better? Everything stuck at my bottle-neck, academics? future? Frankly speaking, i treat everyone as in Family, friends, or relationships in the first place. I don't treat you guys as my foe, or even my toe. Sometimes when i let go my tears, that means i want myself to be more comfortable. I dont hide in the pillow and cry like mad EVERY night like what i did when i was really a little girl. Im 17 now, i guess i have to be more understanding. I wish i can.

Nowadays i saw some of them posted a quotes. It's meaningful. 'If a girl care about you, that means she loves you. She don't know what she stays for, but she knows there is something she couldn't let go.' (why so true lol). I got no idea what i want but i don't think the situation right now won't be like 'dreams come true'. Wake up! stupid.

For some bastards who always say me putting myself in an incorrect mood, let me ask you a question. Can you control your tears if something meant to you alot leaves you or something you love disappear? Human beings have their own emotions, their own temper, and even their own limits. Can you just shut your mouth up before making me worse or I tell everyone your names? Please.